Self-Portrait #2

Before I discuss the attached image, I wanted to point out that the main reason for creating "Critical Distance" was to have a forum for discussion. Of course it would help if I had actually enabled the discussion plugin on my site. I hope I have it now corrected and it shows up in this post. Customer service at my web hosting site has assured me that it is ready to go but I won't believe it until I see it posted. If you have a comment to add (or image to share), please post it and I am told it should go out to everyone subscribed to my blog. I look forward to continuing the conversation.

© 2016 Mark Maio Self-Portrait, Silo City, Buffalo, NY

© 2016 Mark Maio Self-Portrait, Silo City, Buffalo, NY

As I was going through images last week from my September 2016 Silo City workshop, I came across another self-portrait. Given I have led off my blog with two self-portrait posts, it would seem like I make these type of images all the time. The reality is these are the only two I think I have ever made and I was surprised to find this second example.

During my Silo City workshop, I typically do not photograph nor do I vertically explore the over half a million square feet of abandoned space in the grain elevators. I feel my job is to be centrally located on the ground and be available to the attendees so I can help them make good photographs.

This past September the weather for the workshop wasn't ideal. We had some rain, clouds and high winds most of the time we were photographing. Finally, early on the last morning, a high-pressure front came in off Lake Erie and the clouds moved out. I was walking back from the Buffalo River when the sun came up behind me very low on the horizon. For those who have been to Silo City, especially their first time, it is impossible not to be constantly looking up as you walk through the canyons of grain elevators stretching towards the sky. Instead, since I spend a few weeks a year there, when I do have a camera in my hand I tend to follow the light, letting it lead me to images not typically seen. I noticed my long shadow being cast along the ground over a puddle of water left from the rain the night before. I also noticed the white facade of one of the grain elevators reflected in the water. Given my over twenty-five years of photographing in and around that area of Buffalo's grain industry, I felt it was a perfect representation (and reflection) of my photographic life spent there.

The Story Behind the Photograph - "Self-Portrait"

© 1975 Mark Maio    "Self-Portrait"

© 1975 Mark Maio    "Self-Portrait"

Of all my photographs, the one I probably get asked to explain more than any other is "Self-Portrait".

I grew up in a very close, extended Italian family. All my grandparents were from the same small village in Sicily and all my aunts and uncles married other Italians. My grandfather, a coal miner in Pennsylvania, died of black lung a few months after my mother was born in 1929. After his death, my grandmother and her eight children moved back to Milwaukee’s Italian East Side. It was the start of the Depression and my mother's older brothers had to leave high school and find work to support the family. This predominately Italian neighborhood fostered interdependence between friends and relatives which continued even after most of them moved to the suburbs to raise my cousins and I.

Although as I grew up my relatives no longer lived down the street from one another, my weekends were filled with activities centered on my extended family. I saw the thirty or so first cousins on my mother’s side every week at family events. My cousins and I were more like brothers and sisters and my aunts and uncles became extensions of my parents. All my relatives worked in blue-collar jobs and none of them even thought about moving away from the family to take a job. My father and my uncles worked supporting their family's at the same job their entire careers until retirement. Having survived the Depression and serving in World War II, none of them had the opportunity to go to college or take a chance and chase their dream in some other part of the country. 

Being raised Italian Catholic, there were certain expectations our parents had of us. Besides the obvious - religion, the unspoken but predominate one was that like them, we would find a job, get married and live as close as possible to the rest of the family in Milwaukee. While I enjoyed growing up like I did and loved the closeness of my extended family, I never felt like this was my destiny. I knew there was something more I was going to do and ultimately it wasn’t going to be in Milwaukee.

I made the self-portrait as a class assignment while I was attending college getting my degree in photography. In order to afford to go to college, I lived at home, worked in a steel mill at night, sold my car and took the bus to school every day. The bus route included a trip via a long viaduct that connected downtown to the south side of the city over an industrial valley. Below was a tire recycling plant I could see from my elevated bus seat on my way home. It always interested me as I watched the late afternoon light scrape across the shapes and forms of the mountains of tires. Thinking about my self-portrait assignment after riding the bus past the tire plant for a few days, it occurred to me that I felt like that one whitewall tire sitting there in a huge sea of black wall tires. In many ways I was like the rest of the tires but something about me felt different. I couldn't articulate it at the time but it was as if the other tires represented my life in Milwaukee if I stayed. I decided to come back and make a photograph of that as my self-portrait.

It was early spring and I waited for one of those unusual days in Milwaukee when the sun was actually out. There was no place to park on the viaduct and since it was about a mile long with the tire plant at the midway point, I had my girlfriend drop me off with my 4 X 5 view camera attached to a tripod and come back an hour later to pick me up.

I was the only student to turn in an image not actually made of themselves. I remember it didn’t go over too well with my professor, but I always liked the image and still show it. As it turned out, besides me, only one other cousin decided to move away from Milwaukee.

Announcing "Critical Distance" a photography blog by Mark Maio

Announcing "Critical Distance"

A photography blog by Mark Maio

                                          "Wall Street" © Mark Maio from the "Against the Grain" series

                                          "Wall Street" © Mark Maio from the "Against the Grain" series

After years of having friends and colleagues ask if/when or suggest that I should have a blog, I made it a goal to start one with the introduction of my personal photography website: www.markmaio.com

The blog title is “Critical Distance” which is the first commandment of acoustics. It is defined as the location from the sound source where sound and reverberant sound are equal.

In photography, I see critical distance as a similar process of balance. After making a photograph, I step back from my emotional connection to the image to a point where I can evaluate it based on the strength of whether it communicates what I felt.

"Critical Distance" will address a wide range of photography related topics that I find both interesting and worth sharing with friends and colleagues. It will not include reviews of equipment or software. There are so many resources for this the world does not need another one. Feel free to share your thoughts and ideas, as my goal is to stimulate a dialog that will help all of us become better photographers.

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Mark Maio